is my dad abusive? today he grabbed my ears so hard and they turned so red and he put his arms around my face. then he kicked me really hard to the point where I peed, he also pushed me a lot and started slapping me. he did more which I can't remember but he also smashed my phone :) this all happened within 20 minutes and I could barely breathe after that lol. this may not seem so much but it is. this is too personal ig lol and I started self-harming again bc of him yay.